Just some thoughts...
I'm not sure where in the Bible it says that Christ commands us to give "abundantly". I don't think I've heard that before.
The verse by which I judge my giving is 2 Corinthians 9:7 "Every man according as he purposeth in his heart, so let him give; not grudgingly, or of necessity; for God loveth a cheerful giver."
It's not about how
much you give; it's about
how (with what attitude) you give.
Here's a commentary by Tasker...
"Giving must be free and deliberate, not compulsory or casual. Each man must give
as he has purposed in his heart; not grudgingly, i.e. not reluctant that he has to part with so much;
or of necessity, i.e. not having as his main motive the consideration of what others will think about him if he refrains from giving.
Both of these unworthy thoughts rob charity of its loveliness and it's joy. "
It sounds to me like maybe you've lost some of the joy of giving, but possibly not for the reasons listed above. I can tell that you have a lot of compassion for people, but there is a balance to how much you can give before you have to start taking.
Just remember that you have to take care of your family first.
I Timothy 5:8 "But if any provide not for his own, and specially for those of his own house, he hath denied the faith and is worse than an infidel."
In Acts some of the Christians sold their homes and gave all the money to the poor, but some others didn't do that. They were no less blessed because they could not afford to give.
The only times that someone in the Bible is condemned for
not giving is when they have plenty to spare, but refuse to give.
Sometimes you just have to say no to people who ask for things from you. If you feel that God is telling you to give, then you should obey. But if you don't think that God is leading you that way, then say a polite no.
Now I'm rambling so I'm going to shut up...
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