I just reread
The Great Divorce . I like the book and I feel that I learn something everytime I read it. But there's one part that always bothers me.
One of the redeemed, heavenly beings tells a ghost that although he (the heavenly being) committed murder, that wasn't the worst thing he did. It was "the work of a moment." But he murdered someone else (the ghost, in fact) "in my heart, deliberately, for years."
All I can think when I read this passage is: Is Lewis serious? He seems to be saying that an actual murder committed in a moment of rage isn't nearly so bad as thinking about murdering someone for years but not ever doing it.
Um, if I found out that someone hated me so much that they were murdering me in their heart, I'd be weirded out by it. And I'd be distressed and uncomfortable. But better that than someone shooting me in the head after one heated argument.
I can't imagine having the energy to hate someone that much. If I did, I'd consider it a terrible thing and I'd certainly ask God to help rid me of the hatred. But there's no way I'd consider it comparable to actually committing murder.
At least the hatred I felt would only be poisoning me--not ending someone else's life.
And Lewis himself doesn't always put such an importance on emotion. For example, he doesn't seem to think it matters, when you're praying, if you feel sublime or not. That might depend on your overall state of mind and what you had for breakfast, after all. The important thing is that you pray, not how you feel while your praying.
So, is it just me? Or does anyone else have a problem with this passage? Or am I misreading the passage to begin with?